finding a new routine

We have been back at it for a week and I'm exhausted.  I'm trying to remind myself that I FEEL LIKE THIS EVERY. SINGLE. YEAR during the first week of school, but I'm still scared this is my new reality and I'm sad that my sinking spell (meaning I feel like I've been hit by one of the school buses that takes the children from our school to their home) falls at the time that I'm supposed to be enjoying quality time with my own precious children.

BJ takes them to Miss Diana's in the morning.

I took this picture of them on the way out the door and he jovially offered to take mine but I declined as my hair was in rollers and a pump suctioned on me.  Not even I would want to see that image!

  Mom came up for the week because BJ went out of town, so I'm sure I'll have a lot more to write about in that visit.  In the meantime here are some pictures of my little angels who lately have been taking seconds to the 8th graders I've met yesterday.  I know I'll get my mojo back so I'm trying to forgive myself, and  tell myself it is ok to give others what they need, too.  Lack of attention in this household isn't the case as Nana is in the zone when it comes to love, patience and attention.

So, here are some images of the last week or so...

Molly is on the move:

and sitting up:

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Here is a great shot of the sisterly dynamic we're crafting (or might I say what I've got to work with): A LOT OF LOVE -- just not very GENTLE (the word I've used 1,000,000 times since March 2).

Anna Cate enjoyed swinging Molly, and welcoming Molly to the playset.
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And I think Molly liked it, but maybe not as much as her thumb (and yes, I see the gesture she is making, but it was too funny not to post).IMG_2445.jpg

Anna Cate is happy as a helper (translation: when she is occupied). Sunday night, she enjoyed basting the veggies for Daddy to grill. IMG_2424.jpg

She excitedly introduced Molly to food on a spoon (rice cereal mixed with breastmilk).

We haven't tried it again yet as the breastmilk was wasted, and Molly's expression says it all:

Anna Cate and Molly, I'm sorry I'm a little rough around the edges as we are figuring this all out again...
but I promise, I'm still yours.


Norah said…
You are doing a great job and the girls are too. Transition is hard, and it will feel easier every day. I second the feeling of being hit by a bus! I am just TIRED!
Becky said…
Um, I think you're doing great...YOUR girls are dressed with bows in hair in almost every photo :) That's something, in my opinion!

And, could we please transplant your dark mulch and sweet picket fence to my yard? That'd be great! I love it!!
Heidi said…
oh, i love the MOLLY centerpiece. so sweet and i remember beckham decorated our table each night while he fit in his bumbo.

i'm sorry you are upset about starting your routine again. just think that you are doing what you need to to provide the best life possible for those beautiful girls.

...and live for the holidays! i used to teach and holidays were something to always look forward.

you're a good mama.
Whitney said…
I can't believe how well Molly is sitting up? Jake loves to sit and is just now getting a little better at it!

Don't stress about the new routine. Change is always a little hard; all you can do is give it your best. And I agree with Becky, the fact that your girls have bows in their hair is a feat in itself.

Remember, you don't have to do it all. When you pick up a new activity/responsibility, you have to give one up at the same time!

It is also okay to go to bed at 8:30 every Friday night. I have done it for the past 4 years :)